Fuck the Rules

Fuck the rules. Fuck the boundaries. Fuck anyone that gets in your way. Just go for it. Speak your mind. Tell the truth. And let yourself feel what you need to feel. Because if you hold back, even just a little bit, you're going to end up hurting yourself, and saying things you might regret.

I think the real reason people don't speak the truth is because it's like a leash. It hold you back and keeps you sustained. But when you become honest, and speak the truth, you become free. You aren't worried about what people think and you're just okay.

I think that leash makes people feel secure and security so important. I think that's why my mom's on my case so much. She wants me to feel secure, but with rules. I used to think she knew the line between friend and parent, but she's gotten too comfortable with it. She picks on everything about me from my hair to my clothes to my skin. It just stings sometimes? I feel like I'm in a chokehold in a wrestling match the never seems to loosen up.

I've tried telling her, but she laughs and says that it's not that bad. It is. It really is. Sometimes I just feel like breaking down and crying.

Which I'm doing right now.
My mom just yelled at me for losing my key.

Sometimes I hate her.

Sometimes I swear at her undermy breath.

Sometimes I think how much things would change if we really switched places.

How she would feel.

Then I realize that it's not possible

And I cry even harder.