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I went out with my friends around 5:00 pm today. I don't know what it is about being with friends that gives me the biggest confidence boost. Seriously, I go from crying in a corner to flirting with random boys.

I assure you, I am not a slut. I'm still a virgin, and I haven't even gone past second base. Which is pretty good for a 15 year old in America. I just enjoy a good flirting.

Anywho, I think an extremely good pick me up is a car ride with girls who can make you laugh at the drop of a dime. Sure, there's pettyness there, it's high school, but it doesn't have to ruin the moment.

I don't really know how many people read this,( and if you do read it, a comment to let me know how I'm doing with all of this) but I have some advice for the people who feel stuck: it doesn't last. That feeling of hollowness goes away. it isn't the end, and it doesn't have to be.

I'll be truthful and say I've had suicidal thoughts before, and I've thought it through. Just yesterday I read the book "13 Reasons Why". An exceptional read about suicide. It made me realize that as much as I might feel like I'm done, I'm not. And even if that moment feel hopeless, it isn't. I'm sure being a teenager makes all of this inevitable, and my heart chooses my path while my brain analyzes it.

My point is, your mind mistakes the bad situations as the end. And your heart usually knows better, even if it is broken in the slightest. Think it through. Know yourself. Don't ever underestimate who you are.

And if you need someone to listen to you, my email is dreamer_4_life@msn.com.

Don't be afraid to vent it out, cause I'm not one to judge.

Until tomorrow, or I guess since its 1 am, today.